April 10 2021 Work Party

Nothing Wants to Suffer
by Danusha Laméris

after Linda Hogan

Nothing wants to suffer. Not the wind 
as it scrapes itself against the cliff. Not the cliff

being eaten, slowly, by the sea. The earth does not want
to suffer the rough tread of those who do not notice it.

The trees do not want to suffer the axe, nor see 
their sisters felled by root rot, mildew, rust.  

The coyote in its den. The puma stalking its prey. 
These, too, want ease and a tender animal in the mouth 

to take their hunger. An offering, one hopes,  
made quickly, and without much suffering. 

The chair mourns an angry sitter. The lamp, a scalded moth. 
A table, the weight of years of argument. 

We know this, though we forget. 

Not the shark nor the tiger, fanged as they are. 
Nor the worm, content in its windowless world 

of soil and stone. Not the stone, resting in its riverbed. 
The riverbed, gazing up at the stars. 

Least of all, the stars, ensconced in their canopy, 
looking down at all of us— their offspring— 

scattered so far beyond reach.

March 27 2021 Work Party

Little hands do important work. They find the smallest friends nestled in the soil and insist on safe haven for them. They stay present and persist and with determination dig roots longer than they are tall from dark, rich earth. They are filled with wisdom. I help, but work mostly to stay present to their journey. It’s an important one. And important for me to practice simply being alongside another–witnessing. Birds call to each other around us, clouds pass through a pale blue sky, robins engage in territorial dispute, a downy woodpecker stands sentinel. For some blissful moments that stretch to hours, it feels like we might just be all right.

February 27 2021 Work Party

We’ve started removal of a second large patch of Himalayan blackberry at Wallace Swamp Creek Park! What satisfying progress can be made by small, dedicated groups of people. What a balm such kinship is during this pandemic time.

We found gifts in every bit of earth reclaimed–Oregon grape growing all this time under the thick blackberry bramble, brilliantly orange witches butter on the side of a decaying stump, luscious green moss blanketing a fallen tree.

And then a walk to the creek revealed another gift: a pair of hooded mergansers, surfing the riffle and then coming to rest in a pool created by sediment deposits, just being themselves, seemingly unaware of their beauty and the delight they brought to those who witnessed.

What a gift it all is.

resting with the earth

I’ve been feeling sad these past days, so I went to Wallace Swamp Creek Park to ground myself in noticing: The roots of the Himalayan blackberry, so much in appearance like the arteries, veins, and capillaries of our own bodies, stubbornly holding life deep in the soil, waiting for the warmth of the sun to call it to the sky. The heat in my body generated by the work of digging and cutting and pulling. The rain cooling my skin. A round of robins skittering across muddy earth, red breasts carrying forth resilience and hope. Reed canary grass laid down in wetland water. Snowberries, oblong and opulent, dripping from delicate branches over rushing water. A river undoing the scar of what we had done to it not so many months before, defying our impulse to control. The muted earth palette of reds, browns, and grays. The whisper of something. “You are held,” the bare tree branches against the cloudy sky tell me. “The sadness is okay,” says the water cascading over boulders and wood. “It is all okay. You are held.”